I trust that nobody reads my blog because I had to let this one out...
PS: If there's a single soul reading and don't want to be surrounded with negativity, skip this.
You see, I've been in a deep bowl of shit for the last half of December 2011. I broke my arm, got an operation, metal and screws inserted in to help the bone heal, and lost the movement of my right hand. Online, I make it sound like 'oh, it's okay nothing to worry about' but in reality I feel really, really scared. A time like this makes me think of the future.. or is there still one. What if the rehab won't work? What if I won't be able to move my right hand again? What will be my future? For someone studying computers, how the hell am I going to type? How would I, literally and figuratively, feed myself? It all goes down to how scary life is, how scary the world is. And the scariest part is when the people in your foundation are the ones who remind you of how deep you are in this shit that you may or may not survive. Yup, it sucks when that happens... especially on new year's eve. Right now, I do not know what to make of anything, but everything looks so blur.
PS: If there's a single soul reading and don't want to be surrounded with negativity, skip this.
You see, I've been in a deep bowl of shit for the last half of December 2011. I broke my arm, got an operation, metal and screws inserted in to help the bone heal, and lost the movement of my right hand. Online, I make it sound like 'oh, it's okay nothing to worry about' but in reality I feel really, really scared. A time like this makes me think of the future.. or is there still one. What if the rehab won't work? What if I won't be able to move my right hand again? What will be my future? For someone studying computers, how the hell am I going to type? How would I, literally and figuratively, feed myself? It all goes down to how scary life is, how scary the world is. And the scariest part is when the people in your foundation are the ones who remind you of how deep you are in this shit that you may or may not survive. Yup, it sucks when that happens... especially on new year's eve. Right now, I do not know what to make of anything, but everything looks so blur.



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